Beautiful sad flower..

This was really hardest portrait i've ever drawn ...
i made some efford around it but i lost my nervs on the very beginning..
the reference photo is from [link]

she didn't answer me when i asked her if i was allowed to draw it bud i hope she dont mind..

i used toalet paper, regular a4 print paper ( as usual) and 4b, 2b, hb and 4h pencils

i hope u will like it but i doubt because i didn't enjoyed drawing it as i enjoy usualy and i know i can do better..

i am very angry because i can't buy kneeded eraser so i must improvise with regular one...